Do you ever feel like you are just not enough?
I’m a Type A personality. I am pretty OCD about most things.
I am usually my own worst enemy.
I often feel like what I’m doing doesn’t matter. That it isn’t enough. It’s not as nice as it should be. It’s not as clean as it should be. It’s not perfect.
I’ve felt that staying at home doesn’t always matter. The daily monotony of laundry, dishes, and discipline just aren’t enough. I should be out saving the world! I should be doing more.
I should be more.
I have let these feelings rule over my home many times.
I have sacrificed my personal sanity and enjoyment so that everything could be just so.
This week, I have read a number of articles talking about moms just being moms.
And they have spoken directly to my heart.
I am enough at this phase in my life.
I cannot compare my present day to someone else’s because my challenges and triumphs aren’t exactly like anyone else’s.
It’s ok to take a break and love on my kids.. isn’t that the purpose of being a stay at home mom?
It’s ok to miss a shower because the baby needed to be held.
It’s ok that there are extra dirty dishes.
It’s ok that the laundry pile is out of control.
It’s ok that there is a pile of craft supplies to do with the kids that haven’t happened yet.
I am still enough.
Being so worried about living up to my own ideas of perfection robs me of joy. It discounts the plan that God has for my life and the joy that He has given me to be a mama.
My children are a blessing. God has entrusted them to me. He gave them to me because He knew that I was equipped for this job, even when I feel like I am falling short.
Today I am blessed to be a mama.
Today I am enough.